Friday, December 19, 2014
I didn't recognize you at first. I figured I was just tired; long days and lots to do, the season and all. When I woke this morning, I felt like I was just about to round the bend in the path. I could count the hours until we say goodbye to the children. Two weeks away from school. That would be all I needed to begin to feel that Christmas was coming. But now I see that you have had a grip on my heart and it has been tightening, slowly at first but with a growing persistence. Each ornament, each nativity, each carol. Until I found myself in tears this morning. They came suddenly, relentlessly. I don't yet know what to do with you but I promise, I won't ignore you.